questions about ALJ Hearing/ a bit lengthy
Carpal Tunnel both hands
Severe Neuropathy both legs/feet
Severe Depression resulting from the above
Laminectomy L5/S1 / Feb. 2003
PLIF Spinal Fusion L5/S1 / Aug. 2003 (failed)
Removal of 2 pedicle screws / Dec. 2003
The screws were placed to close to the nerves and created severe irreversible pain. I can not walk with out feeling like all the bones in my feet are broken, the skin is being pulled off of them and my legs, sensation of ants biting me, pins and needles, "buzzing" sensation in legs up to groin all of these symptoms are 24/7 no relief what so ever from any of it!
Right hand Carpal Tunnel Release / May 2004
Left hand Carpal Tunnel Release / Jun 2004
It's been a long time since I have posted on these boards, My computer had crashed a while ago and I had lost all my favorites and couldn't remember what email addy's were used and pswords. etc...* but, anywho, I have left out alot of details on how I got where I am today, but did give enough info, I think to let you get to know me a bit.
It is heartbreaking to see the pain and suffering that Social Security puts us through. I have written my Senator and Governor and voiced my opinion of this out-dated, failing system due to incompetent people taking people's lives and just destroying what dignity they may have left. My "experience" with this wonderful system we have is well*. let's just say, has left me not willing to stand and say that I am an American! Seriously, I feel that as a country, we should take care of our own problems and help our own people before we start literally giving it away to other countries just so we can look good??? I have trouble with this. I filed for disability Oct. 2003. With onset of disability of Jan.9th 2003. I was denied and appealed in Mar. 2004. I was denied again on the 2nd level retained an atty. And appealed to the ALJ. My hearing is August 26,2005. Now, I have a 2-page letter from my Neurosurgeon, in full detail of what my disabilities are and what he feels I can do. It is stated in the report that "This patient is totally and permanently disabled." "This disability has lasted 12 months and doubts will improve in the next 12 mos. My family doctor also states in his report that I am unable to work. I went to their Psych. Doctor and he said that I was disabled and I also went to another doctor through Social Security and he said that I was not able to function in an environment that would require me to gain any substantial employment.
But yet, 2 times I have been denied!!!! Social security says there are jobs that I can do, so after my 2nd denial letter, I filed an employment application with them (yes, sometimes we can find the humor!) and listed what I would be able to do for them that would not require the use of my hands, legs, feet, brain..etc* I listed my "impairments" and asked that since they obviously thought that I could do some kind of work, they must know of something or could direct me to where they got that info! Funny thing is. They never called and offered me employment!!!! (yes, I am certainly pissed these days) that they think that they can screw with someone's life the way they do and over-rule all of the doctor's rulings and say ummm* nope.. we think she can work! Why in the heck am I having to go before the judge at a hearing with the well documented records and the statements from ALL the doctor's that I am disabled??? I am on the Fentanyl patch 50's, Lortab's 7.5/500, Neurontin 1200 mg, Ambien for sleep, Wellbutrin 300 mg, Lexapro 20mg for severe depression (actually contemplated suicide due to extreme pain 24/7 for over 8 ½ months before I could find assistance for medication. I told my hubby that if I committed suicide, I would write my letter citing Social Security fully responsible for my death and to just sue the hell out of them!!!!!! My pain is so severe that I am unable to wear shoes, I am unable to sit more than 30 minutes at a time but yet I cannot walk with out being in such pain. So mostly what my day consists of is getting up from bed, take my wonderful drugs and pretty much go straight to the sofa! My doctor's are at a stand still with my treatments because I have no insurance and no viable means to pay for any medical care. And Social Security says I am not disabled so therefore I do not qualify for any assistance in this great state of SC! My hubby has suffered 8 heart attacks and 3 open- heart surgeries in a 10 year span. We live on his disability check (yes we had to fight tooth and nail for him, but that's another story!) I am sorry that this is so long but I have kept this anger inside me for so long, I don't discuss it with hubby because he will get upset and then well I can see where that would go* Please anyone out there who can tell me who determines whether an on the record decision can be made? Can the Atty. Request one? If all of the doctor's have stated that I was disabled, can I really get an unfavorable decision? If yes, how is that so? Also, anyone who has been in front of the ALJ, can you give some insight on how the experience was for you and what types of questions were asked to you? I know going in with a bad "attitude" warranted or not, would be a huge mistake, I am so afraid of showing my disgust for the entire system so any suggestions would be GREAT! Thanks for letting me vent, I really needed to let go of it to someone who knows 1st off of what a horrible nightmare this has been! Ps: It has actually taken me days to write this. I would have never been able to sit and type all of this at one time- So I've been writing a little bit each day!
Peace and Best wishes to all- Sherrie